Summertime Sadness

Dear readers,

It has been a long and frankly, uneventful summer. As it so happens, I'm taking the first day of Autumn to reflect on the last three months, you know, call it out on its bullshit, remind it of the good times etc.

I think I've realised that I'm more of a glass half empty person, which is weird because I always said I was pretty optimistic about things. Silver linings and grass is greener jazz. I guess I'm just not. Finishing my degree  on a high didn't happen and I still cannot get over it, and I don't think I ever will. Still unemployed. I don't even think a pimp would give me a job. And if they, by some miracle, did, I'd still be broke. Still don't have my licence because of my intense anxiety of driving. And still single- not that that's a big deal or anything but, it would be nice to have a S/O. At some point. I also put on a little weight during thesis, which in hindsight, makes me more angry than it should because it seems like I gained weight for nothing. Not that I did purposefully- I didn't. But had I received a better mark, it would have seemed like I gained something in losing something else. So now I'm trying, very slowly, to get myself back into shape.

All this is making me sound like I'm super depressed and had the worst summer ever. I guess it wasn't all that bad. I did get to chill a bit, went on a quickie holiday to Queensland with the family, tried some fabulous and some not so fabulous eateries around Sydney with my definitely amazing sis Chrissie. Also became incredibly addicted to 'Girls', possibly because I identified with it so much. Shoshana, you are my spirit animal! I'm also a bit of a Hannah. But not a Marnie or Jessa /coolstorybro

But in the immortal words of Marina and the Diamonds, 'Guess what? I am not a robot!' So I kind of have to deal with being crap at life, my jealousy at those of you who are androids amplified to a 10. Did I learn anything else from these past few months? The honest answer is no. I think another Summer just passed me by without me giving it a life-affirming 'grabbing of the balls'.

I give Summer a 6/10. Needed to try harder in class but was nice enough. Very sociable with the other kids but should pay more attention to their school work.

Autumn/Winter; I am coming for you.

Toodles!
Annie A

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